Okay...I am going to start off venting and then I will be done I promise. 

Firstly, I lost my soul mate, then my crohn's disease becomes active again (which I am still battling), Emily and Kyle are moving and last week my dad passes away!!!  I GIVE!!!!  I know none of this is news to anyone of you who have been following the blog, but I have to just get it out there.....I am as mad (sad) as hell.  There I said it!

I know I can't do anything to change what has happened or what is going to happen, but I just needed to get it out there to my blog family.  I really am doing fine, I go back to the doctor in a couple of weeks and I should know more then.  It was nice to see my family even though the circumstances were not the best.  My mom seems so fragile.  My parent were married 65 years.  I hope she finds the will to overcome her loneliness, nobody but she can make that happen and at 83 I know that will be hard for her to do.  I do worry about her.


I am happy for Emily and Kyle, just sad for myself.....selfishly.  I know for them this will be such I wonderful time in their lives.  I hope they sell their condo soon and that she finds a good job.

I am planning on going back to Washington DC to the Mesothelioma Symposium in June again this year.   Once again this will be an event that is filled with mixed emotions for me.  I always leave there so frustrated.  I feel like I (we) keep delivering the same message to "stop importing asbestos" and to "please help fund research" but nothing changes year after year.  I hope in my lifetime I see change......

Well I guess I will get off of my pity party band wagon and go to bed     Thanks for reading.

believing

Shelly