I just went to see my brother Doug and his family in Lake Tahoe about 10 days ago.  It was a short but very nice visit.  I was able to spend one on one time with each of my nephews and their girlfriends, as well as my niece her husband and 6 month old son Ben.  I also spent a day with my brother going around the entire lake.  It was a beautiful day and we stopped at Emerald Bay and I also got him to go up in a para sail.  We had the option of 600' or 1200', of course I picked 1200' and it was a gorgeous view of the lake and mountains.  My brother would have been happy at 600'   Once he relaxed a bit and stopped worrying that they was no "safety line" I think he enjoyed it as well.

Then they through a birthday party for my nephew Joe on Sat.  It was a "white trash" themed party!!   So we ALL dressed the part. I completed my outfit with a black bra and a white "wife beater" tee.  Not to mention the much over done makeup and hair teased into knots.  It was fun and even got a knock on the door by the cops at one point.... But they left and when they realized we were just having a good time!

Craigbird:  Thanks for posting him Phyllis.  Yes he still comes faithfully.  Still has not missed a day.  Now here is a weird story.  My brother has a small bathroom off of his laundry room.  That I never use.  However, the night of the party the other bathrooms were full, so I went in there.  Hanging on his wall was a close up 5 x 7 picture of a Craigbird.  Just a bird in a white frame.  I went out and asked my brother if he knew that he had that picture....he didn't even know what I was talking about.  Of all the birds to have in his bathroom and the chance of me seeing it the night before I left and him not even realizing it was in there....another sign!!!  Craigbird was with me in Tahoe too! 

I am trying to put my life back in gear.  It is difficult to do when you are not sure which direction your life will be taking.  When you always had a plan, a dream, and someone who ALWAYS supported you in all of those things is gone....It really sucks.  I wish I could just feel supported, loved unconditionally again and happy.  I have to BELIEVE those days will come...but they seem so far off.

believing....Shelly