That is how I feel....stuck!  Not really able to move forward yet.  Perhaps after Saturday I will, but it still seems surreal.  I am going through all the motions I am suppose to, filling out paper work, contacting proper companies and changing documents, but it just doesn't seem real.  I woke up the other night and it took me about 30 seconds to fully wake up and I REALLY thought I was waking up from a nightmare...unfortunately when I fully woke up it was my horrible reality...life without Craig. 

Support!  I have so much.  Cards by the dozens....even from people I haven't heard from in 15 years or more!  Flowers...beautiful!  Food...trust me Emily and Kyle and my brother are VERY thankful  (I am too of course)  Pam Ryan has called every day just to make sure I am okay.  She has not left my side since Craig's death and has promised me she will be here for the long haul!!  She is just one of many who continue to help me cope.  At times I don't know if I will get through the next hour and then someone calls or just happens to stop over....I just know this healing process is going to take a while and I hope I can count on all of you to be there.  At times I feel like I am strong and others I feel so fragile.  I guess that is normal??  Oh well, enough of that...

I am looking forward to seeing you on Saturday.  We are going to have some journals to write your favorite Craig memories in, so start thinking.  We are also having name tags because there are so many people from the blog, work, friends, family, etc.  We think it will be great for people to be able to put names with faces and meet each other.  Craig would have liked that!   

Believing...Shelly