Well it has been 1 week ago today that Craig passed away.  In some ways it seems like months and in others it seems like minutes.  I can't begin to express my feelings.  He was cremated today....so the cancer is finally out of my life!!  He is at peace, so that is comforting.  But I miss him every minute.  I try to go through the motions of each day.  I get dressed, put one foot in front of the other, get out of the house, etc., but it is not with joy in my heart.

I do not know what I will do when Kyle & Emily go back to their condo.  Luckily my brother is coming in and staying with me for 10 days after they go back then after Craig celebration my sister will be here for a few more.  Right now is the first time I have been sitting alone in my house without anyone else here.  It is sooo quiet.  I hear the ticking of the clock and the wind blowing outside.

I look forward to seeing everyone on the 18th.  I know in some respects it will be hard, but in others it will be uplifting.  Craig was (is)loved by so many.  I know I will have tears of sadness, but I hope we share some laughter too.  Craig would want that.  Much love to all my bloggers

Believing...Shelly